I feel pretty horrible right now. I'll go on about this later.
Anyways the day started alright. I left for the blood drive at school today at like 7:45 and stayed in the auxiliary gym until second block started. Oh and i got a 95 on my quiz. Hazah. Anyways I got pretty full after eating all the snacks so I didn't eat too much lunch. Anyways skipping biotechand math, I stayed after school with Rachel in Mrs. NT's class because she had some test corrections to do. And I helped Mrs. NT set up her room and put up some ceiling tiles and all that.
I feel pretty awful now since Rachel's mad at me and I don't really know why... Sigh I hate this feeling. The feeling of wanting to just sit on your ass and curl up on your floor and not do anything because you feel like your choking on your heart. I feel like complete shit, and I'm starting to get that feeling of "why am I alive, and what's the purpose" like i'm not doing anything with my life and it's just pointless. I'm feeling like all I'm ever doing in life is coming home, studying, using my computer, talking to Rachel. Besides talking to Rachel, I feel like my life is useless and I'm not doing anything in my life. I don't like this feeling. And I wish Rachel thought better of me. And I wish i could find out why she gets mad at me when she does. I can't even study yet since i feel so down, and I don't think it helps that I feel like this with a pint of blood out of me. Sigh. Hopefully my blood will go off to someone else to help them. Anyways I have to go eat. I just feel really bad right now. yeah. I'm off for now.
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